Feeling happy today, finished my exam and it's nice weather

 For the first time since Grace died I feel happy today. I still miss her but the pain of grief is gone. Finishing the exam and having nice weather leaves me with a feeling of freedom and relief.

I'm going to have to practice hard and work out how to make sure the little speaker box works with my midi keyboard for the concert in November.  After that I'm leaving NL and going back to Australia.

Finishing the uni tasks for this unit was like walking through a thick mud. My brain just didn't want to deal with all the information and the pressure to complete them by a certain time. My lecturer was amazingly kind and gave me extensions.  I am hopefully confident that I passed the exam and that I have one more unit completed on the goal to having my bachelors.

I have so many nice memories of Grace. Bringing her home, seeing her for the first time, we were pretty much inseparable for 11 years and 6 months.  They leave such a big space when they are gone. I won't get another pet. I will totally do dog sitting, enjoy my sister's dog and hopefully be a pug foster mum for the pug rescue people.

My voice is still not 100% back, at least I can go from low to high on a lip bubble without having a gap, that was so hard losing my voice. The doctor said it was grief related but there has also been a cough/cold thing going around so maybe it's a combination of everything.

One of my most treasured memories of Grace is witnessing her transforming from a trembling nervous wreck to pampered and sometimes bossy pug who knew her rights. She was very possessive of me with other dogs and I didn't mind that at all.  We went on so many adventures together too. I think she's going to live in my heart forever. She was a wonderful being.