Darling Sweet Girl How I Love You.

 Darling sweet Grace,

We've been together since February 2014, is that 11 years? Not long after I got you I left my prison like marriage with you and a bag and lived secretly in my workspace. We had some big adventures, road trips to Italy, boat rides, house sitting huge houses that had very spoiled dogs.

And you always in your bag, hanging off my left shoulder which is why my right knee is a bit bung.

Your fussy ways, you knowing exactly what time food time was. All the arguments we had that I lost each year with the changing of the clocks.

From springy little underfed young dog to way too fat where the vet told me off and now this slender elderly old lady baby.

I love to  sneak you into the supermarket with a big scarf over the pet pram. You're always with me. When I worked, always at my feet in your bag.

And now the last act of rescue is coming on Monday 1st September. You will peacefully go and be a star in the sky. You won't notice but I will. And I will make it my mission that you won't know how devastated and heartbroken I am.

Your little body is worn out and you look so lost and confused. It's time for you to go my darling. I promised you two things when I rescued you, one was that I was going to be your forever human and the other was that I would never let you have to suffer the pain of super old age. 

You will be ok and I will heal but oh my, this is a really tough adult thing to have to do.